I have lived with CML for the past 8 years, praying all the while & believing God for healing -- the healing that folks say comes by faith. But when does it come? I expected it to come in my timing, becoming bitter, angry, and distant from God, and even blaming Him, when He didn't live up to my standards. I felt hurt and rejected, believing that my faith was too weak or nonexistent to bring healing for me. Through the years, He has helped me to see more clearly. His vision & plan is bigger, better. The truth is, God's faithfulness is persistent, mine not so much.
He is the Healer -- there is no doubt, but my testimony of His daily faithfulness, mercy, & grace can touch more lives than a miracle for my body ever can. People can deny miracles, requiring "proof," and yet the same individuals are out there, grinding it out daily, wanting something better -- a touch from the hand of God. They can have a glimpse of what that can be for them through those of us who are denied healing on this side. You see, the truth of His reality, faithfulness, mercy, grace, redemption, and undying love plays itself out in our lives daily, for all to see, especially in those lives who are looking forward to the healing we will receive when we exit this life.
"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28 NKJV (emphasis mine)
Remember, in Heaven everyone is healed and whole. It is promised to us. We just have to wait a little longer than others, and maybe not as long as some. He has not denied healing, merely postponed it. And it is for this end we yearn -- to see Jesus Christ in all His glory and to bask in the promises made to us so long ago.
"But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance." Romans 8:25 NKJV (emphasis mine)
"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away." Revelation 21:4 NKJV (emphasis mine)