I'm so thankful that I was able to make another delivery. I wasn't sure I would have very many items, as I had a rather slow start. God is very good, and He allowed me both time and strength to complete 15 items. I pray they will bless those who receive them. If you would like to do something like this, simply contact your local cancer center, hospital, etc. Ask who you may speak with about donating items to their facility. I wrote out a list of questions before calling, so that I could have all of the pertinent questions answered right at the beginning. Happy crafting & donating!
In late August, I was unable to deliver the items I had made. In all, I donated 29 hats and blankets combined. There were no lap blankets in this delivery. I am grateful for the opportunity to continue to do what I love while blessing others in the meantime.
I am ashamed to admit that I made no delivery to the cancer center today. I wanted to. I even had the prayer shawls washed and dried. I didn't have as many items ready, and I was planning on visiting a friend in the hospital after my appointment. I spent the day washing and drying items, homeschooling my kids, and working on a special prayer shawl for my friend. Well, her shawl took longer than expected to complete, so I was down to only a few minutes left to brush my teeth and put on my shoes before embarking on my hour-long journey to the doctor. I had a choice to make. I chose to let it go. I could still visit my friend and make it to my appointment, albeit with empty hands. It was a hard decision and forced me to swallow my pride. I don't want to fail. I know that I can deliver the prayer shawls next time around, but it still makes me feel like I didn't do my best. I don't want to be afraid to try and fail, though. After all, it's better than not trying at all.
Well, it's a year since I launched the prayer shawl ministry. I would call it mine, but it's really God's ministry. He just equipped me to take part. I enjoy it so much! I get great satisfaction out of each completed item, as well as the knowledge that I'm getting to help people who don't even know me. That's pretty great, in my opinion.
Over the past year, I've donated around 60 items to the cancer center, where I am also a patient. I wish it were more, but without help, it's hard to achieve more than roughly 15 items per delivery (I deliver once every 3 months.). Having other responsibilities kind of cuts into my time to crochet. All in all, I'm really happy about what I'm doing. I feel that I'm uniquely qualified to give back to cancer patients and have an inside line on what to pray for on their behalf.
I'm also grateful to be doing well enough, in my own journey, to be able to give to others. I thank God for the time, energy, and calling to such a wonderful use of my abilities.
Many Sparrows is grounded in Luke 12:6-7 (also Matthew 10: 29-31), which says, " Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Therefore do not fear. You are more valuable than many sparrows."
Something as insignificant, numerous, and downright pesky as a sparrow is still remarkably valuable to God. How much more valuable, then, is each person? A prayer shawl is a tangible reminder of how much God cares about each person He has created.
One day, I made a prayer shawl for a precious lady at church, who had been diagnosed with cancer. It felt so good to be able to do that simple something for her, something that made her feel special and important -- not forgotten, not a statistic, but a living, feeling, breathing person of value. She sent me a very sweet thank-you note back and I was nearly brought to tears. Unfortunately, she is not with us anymore. She passed away in March of 2015, after a couple rounds of chemotherapy that siphoned the strength from her body. I am thankful that she is with the Heavenly Father now. She doesn't have to fight anymore.
All of a sudden, it became clear to me -- this was a ministry that I could be part of. I am able to use the abilities that God has given me, coupled with the experiences I have been through as a leukemia (CML) survivor, to reach out to others who may feel the same as I did. I used to feel that somehow it was my fault that I got cancer, and I had become a burden on my family and society. I felt that my life was worth nothing now that I was "sick." I now realize that this is not true. I still am a person of value and have tremendous worth. As I look around at others who are going through sickness, I don't feel that they are a drain on society or on their families, but I'll bet they do. I don't want anyone to feel the way I did. I want them to know how much God loves and cares for them. I want them to feel special and significant. My hope is that by giving cancer patients an item that I have made, they will feel special, valued, and hopeful for the future.
and this is where I document various things about my prayer shawl ministry.